image by @ilsa_whk
words by @__taniarahman
something about bodies of water
soothe me like nothing else
perhaps it reminds me
of what it feels like
to be in my mother's womb
before my first worldly trauma
was inflicted upon me
cold metal claws
rip me out of my mother
and into a stranger's hands
a room filled with bright lights
maybe that's why until today
i loathe the sting of
fluorescent lighting
in an enclosed space
perhaps it's because
the ocean too cycles
with the moon
just as i do
tides swell, rivers flow
they cannot resist
the pull of the moon
as a young child
my lungs filled with water
as i sank deeper and deeper
into the depths
of an olympic sized pool
but i returned to land
and breathed again
a rebirth? again,
pulled out of the waters
by someone i did not know
am i doomed
to forever wait
for a saviour
to come and rescue me?
that was the blueprint
to my entire life
set by the path i took
to come into this world
alas the water didn't take me
and i keep coming back to it
again and again
i've always wondered
if one day the water
will claim me
as one of her own
- T.R